THE REALITY CHECK IS IN THE MAIL…..
February 26th 2007 21:39
Re-al-i-ty n
1. actual being or existence, as opposed to an imaginary, idealised, or false nature.
2. everything that actually does or could exist or happen in real life
3. something that has real existence and must be dealt with in real life
4. a kind of existence or universe, either connected with or independent from other kinds
5. The totality of real things in the world, independent of people’s knowledge or perception of them
My reality changes on a daily basis, it is ok course dependent on my state of mind, which in turn is influenced by how I perceive and react to situations, conversations, events that make up each minute of my existence, the emotions evoked and the mood and thoughts that result…
No wonder I’m tired before I even get out bed in the morning.
If I try to maintain an optimistic outlook, put a positive spin on how things are going in my life and look at the upside of any given situation, sure I can find something to be happy about, comparing my life to 90 % of the world’s population. However, to remain in an upbeat mood, I find I am increasingly operating in a state of denial. Selectively focusing on avoiding the real issues looming on the horizon, mortgage payments, the never ending stream of bills that flow in every month, regardless of the fact that I am not working, not eligible for government assistance and trying to cut out any extravagance in my day to day life. I have an arsenal of weapons to fall back on……avoidance tactics, steath moves, distractions……………
I find it difficult to remain cheerful if I carry out a reality check, make a mental inventory, a profit and loss balance sheet, I can easily be overwhelmed by a sense of loss of control of my immediate let alone long term future.
How did my life become so complicated, when did I really stop taking time to smell the proverbial roses and become caught up in “status symbols and material wealth as a barometer syndrome “which affects a lot of people in our modern, I focused, disposable society?
Why am I so hesitant to make changes to simplify my life, deep down inside I know this is the sensible thing to do?
Why am I hanging on by my fingernails, trying to maintain
a way of life that no longer meets my emotional needs?
Why am I frozen in this limbo-like malingering?
Why can’t I take the first step in relinquishing a lifestyle that I cannot maintain anymore and am not even sure that I want?
What do I want? I guess that is the question……..
1. actual being or existence, as opposed to an imaginary, idealised, or false nature.
2. everything that actually does or could exist or happen in real life
3. something that has real existence and must be dealt with in real life
4. a kind of existence or universe, either connected with or independent from other kinds
5. The totality of real things in the world, independent of people’s knowledge or perception of them
My reality changes on a daily basis, it is ok course dependent on my state of mind, which in turn is influenced by how I perceive and react to situations, conversations, events that make up each minute of my existence, the emotions evoked and the mood and thoughts that result…
If I try to maintain an optimistic outlook, put a positive spin on how things are going in my life and look at the upside of any given situation, sure I can find something to be happy about, comparing my life to 90 % of the world’s population. However, to remain in an upbeat mood, I find I am increasingly operating in a state of denial. Selectively focusing on avoiding the real issues looming on the horizon, mortgage payments, the never ending stream of bills that flow in every month, regardless of the fact that I am not working, not eligible for government assistance and trying to cut out any extravagance in my day to day life. I have an arsenal of weapons to fall back on……avoidance tactics, steath moves, distractions……………
I find it difficult to remain cheerful if I carry out a reality check, make a mental inventory, a profit and loss balance sheet, I can easily be overwhelmed by a sense of loss of control of my immediate let alone long term future.
How did my life become so complicated, when did I really stop taking time to smell the proverbial roses and become caught up in “status symbols and material wealth as a barometer syndrome “which affects a lot of people in our modern, I focused, disposable society?
Why am I so hesitant to make changes to simplify my life, deep down inside I know this is the sensible thing to do?
Why am I hanging on by my fingernails, trying to maintain
a way of life that no longer meets my emotional needs?
Why am I frozen in this limbo-like malingering?
Why can’t I take the first step in relinquishing a lifestyle that I cannot maintain anymore and am not even sure that I want?
What do I want? I guess that is the question……..
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Comment by David
Are you just typing out loud, or do you want some feedback on this question?:
And the other questions?
Or, had you planned to block people from commenting on this post, and just have comment-monologues with yourself until you answer them all yourself?
David ...
Comment by Miss Nomer
Dont know the answer.......
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Miss Nomer