Meaning of Life???
July 21st 2006 19:22
I'm sure you've stopped and wondered about this question - who hasn't? Actually, I'm sure people haven't either. Sometimes I just wish that I could get on with life without thinking about such things... But fortunately or unfortunately, I do not seem to be able to help it...
I've known some people who don't give a rats butt about such things... They know what life's about - besides eating, sleeping, going out, sex, being "happy", etc.. they know that life is about getting good grades, getting secure job, getting happy family, then having good retirement... that's it~! so simple. No questions asked, thank you very much...
But for some damn reason I seem to find it so hard to accept this... Just accept it. Don't worry about it, you live once, live like you're "supposed" to live, then end up according to your religious belief...
Nope sorry, I just can't do it...
Hence I have spent countless hours, perhaps days, pondering this question. Well not specifically this question - just thought that it'd be a catchy title
But more directly, "what is the point of MY life"...
At one point I couldn't come up with a satisfactory answer - actually perhaps I still haven't. But at one point, I was so dissatisfied, so annoyed at the fact that this life I was living, could not be lived according to the rules that I wanted to live it. I didn't like the fact that my parents didn't ask me - "Hey you wanna be a part of life?" Heck, if they had asked me there's no way in hell that I would've said "yes". (Of course, though I don't believe in hell)
I would've said, "No, no, leave me in this void of non-existence, where I don't have to deal with all that shit that comes with living".
Now I guess that's an awfully pessimistic perspective and even now, knowing that that type of thinking really gets you nowhere... I can't help thinking about it...
So... what have I concluded is "the meaning of life"??? or "what life is about"???
Well one "thought" I came up with was that "life" is about "not being unhappy"... We do what we can to try and stay away from the state of "unhappiness" as far as possible. I thought that it's not about trying to attain "happiness", if indeed such a thing as "true happiness" can exist, it's all about trying not to be "unahppy".
Trying not to be unhappy... So whatever makes you unhappy... for example, let's see... Something that a lot of people may find "unhappy" is boredom. So each to their own, we go and find things to do to keep away from a state of boredom. Personally I find that DotA does the trick. (Heh for those in the know~)...
Even something as basic as eating - being hungry puts you in a state of "unhappiness" so we eat... to be satisfied and not unhappy from hunger...
I think in a way, everything can be broken down into this basic "thought"...
I came up with this about a year or so ago, maybe... Do I still agree with it? I'm not sure to tell you the truth... After all that thinking and thinking, I'm still stuck on square one... Actually, I think I'm back to square one, due to some of the stuff that's gone on in my life recently... But I guess the point is I haven't "progressed".
But then, is that a problem? Heh, you be the judge if you want... Frankly I'm not sure at the moment... There are certain things I want in and out of life... But I'm not sure how to attain them...
Not being in a state of unhappiness...
I wonder if that even makes sense to you... : )
-Heej-
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