HOW CAN I LOVE MYSELF IF I DONT KNOW WHO I AM?
February 4th 2007 12:28
SYNCHRONICITY OR A CONSPIRACY
Hmm.......spooky.......
My practical day to day self hasnt caught up with my 'new" positive thinking, self as per my earlier post of today. I only just got round to checking my Jonathan Cainer horoscope for the month just now and I am very very excited indeed!!!!!!!!!!!
TAURUS
(Apr 21 - May 21)
Your February Forecast: Right now as we speak, throughout the world, hundreds and thousands of people are lying on their backs. They are not asleep. They are in therapy. Following various different new-age techniques for self-understanding and improvement, they are engaged in the process of creative visualisation. They are bringing positive pictures into their mind's eye in the hope that this will enable them to turn their dream into a reality. Why are they doing it? Because it works. Venus insists that if you now focus on a bright vision, you can make magic happen all through February. All it takes is a little self-belief and some continuous effort.
Golly Gosh, it's just what that program last night was banging on about. I have a slight problem though, I spent an hour this evening trying to visualise myself in the home of my dreams with my dream partner doing dreamy type things and it kept changing. My ideal partner looked like the sex god but had bits of the personality of the ex, (tv through the window ex) and bits of the Guru,(who's still in town till tomorrow), and a bit of the love of my life, (who died after his life support was switched off), and the wit of a particular Orble poster and I got tired and confused with all of the morphing going on before I even got to the ideal home or home life!
Will my ADD or ADHD ruin my chances to tap into the abundance of the universe. Will depressed me flex its rippling bicep and arm wrestle puny little trying to me happy me and win? I have pondered the old "no one will love you if you dont love yourself" adage and am left with only questions, which me should I love the "nice me" or the "not nice me" or the "depressed me" , or should I try to love all of me, which doesnt seem kind of right, and now it seems like I have to hurry, cos the stars say the time is now......I wish someone could give me the answer, but of course apparently the answer is already inside me...............?
Hmm.......spooky.......
My practical day to day self hasnt caught up with my 'new" positive thinking, self as per my earlier post of today. I only just got round to checking my Jonathan Cainer horoscope for the month just now and I am very very excited indeed!!!!!!!!!!!
TAURUS
(Apr 21 - May 21)
Your February Forecast: Right now as we speak, throughout the world, hundreds and thousands of people are lying on their backs. They are not asleep. They are in therapy. Following various different new-age techniques for self-understanding and improvement, they are engaged in the process of creative visualisation. They are bringing positive pictures into their mind's eye in the hope that this will enable them to turn their dream into a reality. Why are they doing it? Because it works. Venus insists that if you now focus on a bright vision, you can make magic happen all through February. All it takes is a little self-belief and some continuous effort.
Golly Gosh, it's just what that program last night was banging on about. I have a slight problem though, I spent an hour this evening trying to visualise myself in the home of my dreams with my dream partner doing dreamy type things and it kept changing. My ideal partner looked like the sex god but had bits of the personality of the ex, (tv through the window ex) and bits of the Guru,(who's still in town till tomorrow), and a bit of the love of my life, (who died after his life support was switched off), and the wit of a particular Orble poster and I got tired and confused with all of the morphing going on before I even got to the ideal home or home life!
Will my ADD or ADHD ruin my chances to tap into the abundance of the universe. Will depressed me flex its rippling bicep and arm wrestle puny little trying to me happy me and win? I have pondered the old "no one will love you if you dont love yourself" adage and am left with only questions, which me should I love the "nice me" or the "not nice me" or the "depressed me" , or should I try to love all of me, which doesnt seem kind of right, and now it seems like I have to hurry, cos the stars say the time is now......I wish someone could give me the answer, but of course apparently the answer is already inside me...............?
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Comment by David
This shit confuses me too.
I thought Synchronicity was an Album by the Police and Conspiracy was a half-title to a Mel Gibson film. *
Spooky alright. Woooo Woo (intone X-Files intro music or Twilight Zone or Deadly Earnest???
My Horror-Scope? = My inner mirror. I take one look at my own interior? Scary Shit.
ARIES
(March sometime a bit of April I think )
Your February Forecast: Watch Fight Club.? Get angry with your Penguin Pecker? (nup wrong film that was Slingblade Uh-huh Dont reckon I got any reason to be killing no-one no more Or do I? (Sorry Im not that clued up on Astrology Getting lessons at the moment though and getting right into it Turning all Pagan Thinking of doing some real sacrificial stuff rather than self-sacrificial Catholic stuff If only I could bi-locate? Or fly?
So confused
I so wish my parents were still alive so I could ask the inner parents a few questions All Im left with is a fight-club inner child and hes a complete fuckwit ***
I ask myself?
David
Comment by Miss Nomer
Dear David,
My heart aches for your inner turmoil and torment, please take some comfort in these words....
courtesy of Mr Cainer.....
ARIES
(Mar 21 - Apr 20) Your February Forecast: They say that all is fair in love and war. This explains why we live in such an unfair world. Rarely is there a time when the inhabitants of this planet are not in either of the above states. We are all constantly rewriting the rules of daily life to suit our passionate purposes. You cannot hope for peace in February any more than you can hope for justice. But you can hope for - and attain - something much more precious than both: the ability to see what is happening for what it truly is. You do not have to be inflamed - or biased. You do not have to be unduly angry or overly sympathetic. Be calm, be wise, be neutral and you'll yet be very successful.
I hope that helps.
If not if you are ever in ....... I know an excellent therapist who specialises in naughty chair therapy for the fight-club inner child and past life regression so you can go back to a life when you were your parent...all very uplifting and inspiring stuff.
And failing all that I have a whip and a mask and for a small fee can beat the crap out of the little fuckwit until he whimphers in submission...........
Comment by David
The Astrology forecast? ... Not half as interesting as your Sub/Dom S&M stuff at the end of the comment ...
Any chance of getting this 'Therapists' ... address??? ... Wouldn't mind paying her a visit ... (without paying a fee? other than the gift of self??? ...
Far too aroused at the moment to post anything serious ...
Might have to whip myself
into a frenzy ...
of foamy lathery ... Um sperm? ...
Wish I had a Devo album ...
David ...
Comment by Uula Limanski
Thinking The World
instead, i propose i go play poker online. I have a friend of mine who started with nothing and these last weeks he's been paying my beers every time we go out..
Cheers. Uula
Comment by Miss Nomer
Comment by Lilla
From The Home Front
Enviro Warrior
Dream Herald
Esoteric Bookshop
Here's a tip from someone who knows no better, but thinks she may be onto something, purely because she has some years behind her ... years of wis(dumb) that is... ha ha...
Firstly. STOP READING YOUR HOROSCOPE - unless you can detatch and not take it seriously.
Secondly. Spend some money on yourself - you're worth it - and get a personal horrorscope done - from a professional - someone who has spent their life studying and mapping and learning. Learn WHO YOU ARE... you personally, not you and 20 god-zillian others also called TAURUS.
I hate pigeon holes, God I hate pigeon holes....
Take a saltz bath every once in a while, lock the door and hang a do not disturb sign on it!
I have more tips, but it's kinda private ... hmm, I might do a "how to re-connect to the planet " post on Envirowarrior soon, thanks for the idea...
I ((truly)) hope you find your tail soon, Taurus, you are a wonderful sign and it's a great place to start. It is said amongst astrological circles, that life is richer for Tuareans having passed through - just look at the impact of Shakespear and Barbara Streisand. You just have to find out which one you are...
With love, light and laughter,
Lilla
Comment by Miss Nomer
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Comment by JoshZ
I don't belive that my future is dictated by the position of uranus.
Sorry, couldn't help it.
It's a tough question to ask, who am I and do I love myself or just the part of me that is nice?
For me I guess it is enough to know that I am loved, have been forgiven and so I am going to love others as much as I can.
Outside of that it comes down to details I guess.
JZ
Comment by Miss Nomer
My bottom is currently resting rather comfortably thanks for asking, though it is a bit sore, 20 mins on the excercise bike to work off the banana split!
Seriously though, thanks very much for your comments.
Astrology is actually very interesting there is a lot more too it than the very generalised sun signs in the paper, I only believe it when it says something I want to hear and only if its positive! And why not, no harm done.
I think you have a great attitude, knowing I am loved and that some people have forgiven me and loving others is all part of the eternal circle I guess.
It reminds me of the serenity prayer.... I love it!
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot chanage, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.
thanks again x
and the wisdom to